i feel so alone right now its unbelievable.. 

i know he's going through his own right now, but i need him.. 

nobody else relates to me or understands me the way he does.. 

i want nothing more then to be there for him.. and in this situation 

there is literally nothing i can do.. 

today i broke down crying.. and i couldn't even tell you why.. 

just everything mashed together made me break down.. 

like everything i was feeling was running through my head... 

and none of it was coming out right... 

that was making me more irritated.. 

i feel so alone.. useless.. irritated.. hurt.. mad.. scared.. 

so many things.. 

my mind is just all over the place.. 

i havent been this depressed in such a long time.. 

i hate it.. 

HATE IT.