Life Lessons.

It's almost unbelievable how fast this year went by. This year was ALMOST perfect. So many tears, both happy and sad. So many uncontrollable laughs with friends. A countless number of crazy nights you won't ever forget, or remember. Haha I'm just kidding. On a serious note, I did A LOT of growing up in 08. I really do feel like I changed for the better. I don't just feel like it was another year that went by. I feel like I actually did something for myself this year. It definitely wasn't a walk in the park though. I was hard letting go of old things and allowing new and unfamiliar things to enter your life. But I guess that's what growing up is about? I'm just so excited that 09 is about to be here. It's a new start and I'm determined to make it better, if not just as good as 08. At the same time, I'm sad to let 08 go because it was such a great year! 

WELL HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

HOPE EVERYONE ENJOYS IT!

What happened to FAMILY?

My family has always been really tight. One of those big families where everyone loves each other. One of those families that has BBQ's every Sunday. I had the type of family where cousins and aunts were best friends. But the past two years has brought nothing but drama to my family. It's ridiculous how immature my family is being! It's actually pretty disgusting. It's gotten to the point where everyone is doing their own thing for Christmas! Ever since I was born, and probably before that, the whole family got together for Christmas, and New Years. And this year were not?! Over something as stupid as this!? I hurts to say it, but who knows how many holidays we have left with each other? Grandmas getting pretty old.. and so is Gramps. Can't everybody just put your stupid problems a side?! Don't you even care how this is effecting the kids?! Gosh. I swear sometimes adults can be more immature then the "kids."

Does anybody even care anymore!??!!

I'm so tree hugger but lately in World History it has come to my attention that...

we're killing our freaking planet!!!

So basically I think we really need to realize what we're doing.
Everyone hears about this "global warming" and "pollution"
but nobody is really educated. I think the media needs to make a better attempt to educate our society about this before it's to late.

We're running out of options.

finals.

I really do honestly hate finals. I hate it with a passion. Not only is it pretty stressful, but also it's just another reminder that school and just time in general is going by way to fast! Late night study sessions kill you! I think I'm doing a pretty good job in preparing myself for finals this time. Unlike last year. I guess that's just one of the perks of NOT being a Freshman. =]

Bye Gunderson

I'm sooooooo out of here. 

To many memories. It hurts.

Tired of the same faces. It's irritating. 

The same routine everday.. 

CAN YOU SAY BORING?!

Now I just got to make the final decision. 

It's MY choice.. Anywhere I want to go and I'm there. 

But now where do I go?? 

And the most intresting part is when I'm gone, nobody will notice.

Maybe once I'm gone for a few weeks. 

Doesn't seem like..

When ever you want to be alone, everyone just seems to want to be around you.?

And when ever you just need to talk, nobody is available?

Doesn't it seem like when ever somebody turns to you and asks, "What's wrong,"

with just that irritating voice, it just makes your eyes well up with tears?

All I know is that's how it's been for me lately and it's driving me crazy... 

I need to get out of Gunderson

I don't know why but for the past two months or so I have just grown to completely dislike Gunderson. And this is where my story starts. So it was after lunch, 5th period, and as usual I was completely fed up for the day. I walked into Mr. Thompson's class, looked to my right, and this is what I read. Gunderson High School is a technological, collaborative, college preparatory community that achieves excellence, celebrates individuality, and respects diversity. That would be Gunderson's Vision Statement. Reading this made me realize something. As an 8th grader coming into high school as a freshman, I chose Gunderson as my school for one reason and one reason only. And that was because I heard nothing but good things about this school, and at orientation I remember Mr. Castro starting his speech off with that statement. From that moment on I was so excited to start. I loved the fact that everyone could be themselves, that we had no cliques, and for the most part everyone got along with each other. Celebrates individuality and respects diversity. That is what I was most looking forward to. Unfortunately as the year went on I found this to be completely not true. Nobody is an individual and everyone is the same. Yea we do have so many different kinds of people, but no matter what "type" of person they are, they all have the SAME EXACT ATTITUDE. Everyone has this attitude of I don't care. Excuse my language but I'll kick your ass because I'm so hard. And to be honest it came from the class of 2011 and now the class of 2012 has followed. Every school has drama. I mean come on, it's high school. But as far as I'm concerned, our Freshmen and Sophomore classes has doubled Gunderson's drama rate. Even though I'm not in it, it gets really annoying to hear about it. To hear about who's supposedly fighting who when everyone knows it's most likely not going to happen. I've just become so tired of it. I realize no matter where I go this is going to happen, but I've gone to school with these people since elementary school and middle school. I just need change. I need to get out of Gunderson. I need to meet new people. And I feel I can't do that at this school

La Familia

Being shot in the eyesss

So, yesterday Robert and I were talking about our experiences of getting our eyes checked. While we were discussing, we came to the conclusion that both of us were shot in the eyes with air! Basically what they do is tell you to place your chin on the chin rest. The next thing your know, THIS BIG BLAST OF AIR SHOOTS YOU IN THE EYESSSSSSSS!! It scared me so much. I thought I was going to go blind!!

Robert and I think that this is not necessary. Optometrists should not be allowed to shoot us in the eyes. 

It should be considered cruelty to humanity . 

=] 

i missz my friend. . .

It basically happened over night. Literally. The weekend before school started, we were hanging out. We had one of the best times and best adventures EVER. Then school actually started, and just like that we drifted apart from each other. I realized it right away but I guess you didn't see it. When you did start to realize it, you cried to me about how much you didn't want to lose me as a friend, I told you I was always going to be here, and it's still like that. After that I made a lot of efforts to try and reconnect with you, and you blew it off. It's now gotten to the point where we pass by each other and don't even say hi. We went from spending late night together and sharing secrets, to not even noticing each other was there! And that really hurts me a lot, if you even care anymore. So basically I'm done making attempts to try and fix this. It's not a one way street. I'm not a doll that you can pick up and play with at your convenience. Hey, I guess all we can say is, it was good while it lasted..

It's a LOVE and HATE thing

That's just another thing about life you have NO control over what so ever. Your emotions. No matter what you do, no matter what anyone says, your heart controls what you feel. Your brain, head, what ever you want to call it, can tell you what's right. But in the end your heart makes the final decision for you. I've realized that recently.. and honestly, I don't know what to do with it.. I'm the type of person who likes to have control. The type of person who wants to be able to call the shots, and have things go that way. And if it just so happens it doesn't, I tend to get a little unhappy. =] And with my situation right now, I have NO CONTROL AT ALL. I don't like it. I know what exactly what I should be doing, and what I want to say. But that just doesn't seem to matter anymore. Like I said before, my heart is controlling my mind at the moment. I'm not liking this new feeling, but I love it? If that makes any sense? I love the feeling in my stomach, looking at "it" just makes everything better. I hate it and I love it. I don't get it.

Since I've been blogging I realized that maybe, just maybe, I don't have it all together like I thought. I've come to notice I don't get or understand a lot of things..

Do you ever feel like you have so much on your plate you just want to throw it all away? Just drop everything your doing and take time to look around you and appreciate things? To just relax? I've been feeling like that since school started. I have school and two outside sports. I work my but off in my first sport, and with the second one, it just never seems like I'm good enough. With school it just seems like if it's not one thing, it's another. I'm just tired of working really hard on a stupid homework assignment, just to get it back and have it have some stupid numbers and the top. It's really frustrating. I understand that teachers have 100+ students, but still. It would be nice just once in a while have a teacher say, "Good job, I can tell you worked hard." Even if it's not an A+ paper. You know? I know I'm doing this for my future it just seems like I'm doing it for nothing because I get nothing back but maybe some B's and C's printed on a white paper. I'm just getting really frustrated with it all. Or maybe I do just have too much on my plate? But even though I complain about it, it's what I love to do. I love my sports and I love coming to school everyday. It would just be nice to be recognized for my work. Even if it doesn't always exceed standards I still did put a lot of effort into it. Gosh. So many standards to reach. They put the bar so high... 

Numero Uno!

So basically I just made my first blog post ever! I think that's pretty exciting because I've never had a blog before. Ever! Before today I used to think blogs were pretty boring and down right stupid. I really didn't think they had any meaning at all. But then Matt started telling me about his blogs and all the positive things about it and now I'm pretty excited to have this blog and I'm actually thinking about making a new one for outside of class. So thanks to Matt I now have a new blog other then this one. Maybe like a diary but not so third grade-ish. Maybe more of thoughts that I think? Not the drama, or lack of it, in my life? Well I'm done now. LATEE