Being shot in the eyesss

So, yesterday Robert and I were talking about our experiences of getting our eyes checked. While we were discussing, we came to the conclusion that both of us were shot in the eyes with air! Basically what they do is tell you to place your chin on the chin rest. The next thing your know, THIS BIG BLAST OF AIR SHOOTS YOU IN THE EYESSSSSSSS!! It scared me so much. I thought I was going to go blind!!

Robert and I think that this is not necessary. Optometrists should not be allowed to shoot us in the eyes. 

It should be considered cruelty to humanity . 

=] 

i missz my friend. . .

It basically happened over night. Literally. The weekend before school started, we were hanging out. We had one of the best times and best adventures EVER. Then school actually started, and just like that we drifted apart from each other. I realized it right away but I guess you didn't see it. When you did start to realize it, you cried to me about how much you didn't want to lose me as a friend, I told you I was always going to be here, and it's still like that. After that I made a lot of efforts to try and reconnect with you, and you blew it off. It's now gotten to the point where we pass by each other and don't even say hi. We went from spending late night together and sharing secrets, to not even noticing each other was there! And that really hurts me a lot, if you even care anymore. So basically I'm done making attempts to try and fix this. It's not a one way street. I'm not a doll that you can pick up and play with at your convenience. Hey, I guess all we can say is, it was good while it lasted..

It's a LOVE and HATE thing

That's just another thing about life you have NO control over what so ever. Your emotions. No matter what you do, no matter what anyone says, your heart controls what you feel. Your brain, head, what ever you want to call it, can tell you what's right. But in the end your heart makes the final decision for you. I've realized that recently.. and honestly, I don't know what to do with it.. I'm the type of person who likes to have control. The type of person who wants to be able to call the shots, and have things go that way. And if it just so happens it doesn't, I tend to get a little unhappy. =] And with my situation right now, I have NO CONTROL AT ALL. I don't like it. I know what exactly what I should be doing, and what I want to say. But that just doesn't seem to matter anymore. Like I said before, my heart is controlling my mind at the moment. I'm not liking this new feeling, but I love it? If that makes any sense? I love the feeling in my stomach, looking at "it" just makes everything better. I hate it and I love it. I don't get it.

Since I've been blogging I realized that maybe, just maybe, I don't have it all together like I thought. I've come to notice I don't get or understand a lot of things..

Do you ever feel like you have so much on your plate you just want to throw it all away? Just drop everything your doing and take time to look around you and appreciate things? To just relax? I've been feeling like that since school started. I have school and two outside sports. I work my but off in my first sport, and with the second one, it just never seems like I'm good enough. With school it just seems like if it's not one thing, it's another. I'm just tired of working really hard on a stupid homework assignment, just to get it back and have it have some stupid numbers and the top. It's really frustrating. I understand that teachers have 100+ students, but still. It would be nice just once in a while have a teacher say, "Good job, I can tell you worked hard." Even if it's not an A+ paper. You know? I know I'm doing this for my future it just seems like I'm doing it for nothing because I get nothing back but maybe some B's and C's printed on a white paper. I'm just getting really frustrated with it all. Or maybe I do just have too much on my plate? But even though I complain about it, it's what I love to do. I love my sports and I love coming to school everyday. It would just be nice to be recognized for my work. Even if it doesn't always exceed standards I still did put a lot of effort into it. Gosh. So many standards to reach. They put the bar so high... 

Numero Uno!

So basically I just made my first blog post ever! I think that's pretty exciting because I've never had a blog before. Ever! Before today I used to think blogs were pretty boring and down right stupid. I really didn't think they had any meaning at all. But then Matt started telling me about his blogs and all the positive things about it and now I'm pretty excited to have this blog and I'm actually thinking about making a new one for outside of class. So thanks to Matt I now have a new blog other then this one. Maybe like a diary but not so third grade-ish. Maybe more of thoughts that I think? Not the drama, or lack of it, in my life? Well I'm done now. LATEE